Things can never be all smooth, but I can be calm. There won't always be light around, but I can be awake. Gusts may try to sweep me off but I can hold on. I may come across frowns and gruff but I can still smile. You may not keep your promises but I can wait and move on. I may not be all wise but still I can listen to the wisdom of my body.
There floats about me around me a softness that whispers to me. No secrets there, but intimate feelings uttered fleetingly. I take those in roll them over and then sometimes can make sense. I am reassured of the truth of holding on quietly to my choices and my beliefs. I am not asacrifical goat at some altar. My body is not an object of art. It is the living temple of the eternal flame of love and creation never to be extinguished.
Water accepts making way for me as I bathe. Water accepts all that comes off the skin and the land. Water accepts all that rain gods pour without reserve. Water cleanses making itself into an ocean. As I emerge from purification the truth of life is emerging....
Standing tall doesn't come naturally to me nor does belittling anyone. I stretch myself and feel good about it. I march through and feel upbeat. I hold my space and feel anchored. I am in your face and feel vindicated. I am here and there and feel everywhere. Standing tall I look straight into you and in that I get the sense of being tall.
Gazing into the future I expect it will reveal itself to me - that something which keeps jingling beckoning and vanishing. I haven't chased it not yet but I know it's just near very near my heart. I am not cracking a mystery for it is not one. It's just the sense of the mysterious behind the curtains and still your very own - the whole canvas of life.
I live in every line every pore and every curve living in of and by my body. I feel the beauty in every inch of it I smell it touch it and also taste it not merely see it. I hear its rhythm in every breath. The truth of my living is in taking all of that beauty inside.
The Sun and the sand The Breeze and the sea Just me with all longings and no belongings With all tenderness in my heart and limbs and no fire of passion and fury of possession. Facing with simplicity and lightness. Nothing can join me except by being itself in self and of self.
I have been readying for a life of quiet dignity Of sustainment of meaning. I am not rushing nor gushing. Neither pushy nor cushy. There are parts I play and once over I return to my naked self. I wait in readiness but without expectation for the flow of simple joy of being in a meaningful relationship with the world.
Everything smooth and shining Life built brick by brick - I hadn't bargained for all this, coming from the rough-and-tumble of daily struggle and hopelessness of circumstances. But Life taught me to love being alive and not curse it. Not small joys and joys in small things, but I cherished that I was alive and fighting and that was enough to keep me going. Here I am savouring every moment now as I was then.
Rested awhile accepting the darkness around. The soul goes mute and subdued when the din and bustle of the world rises beyond a point. I knew I couldn't do a thing at that phase, but wasn't helpless. Wait I did, not allowing the darkness to enter my being. Even then I knew not that the first rays of sunlight would steal a march over me.
Life has its desolate labyrinth and dry barrenness But its tender softness is nourishing The grim grayness tries to wall life Yet the vast expanse guards the tiny opening to receive the life giving force of the world and there is the firm footing of holding on and staying unwavered unswept by the winds of storms in the belief that the Sun will shine and the Moon will smile one day soon enough.
World is plentiful but knows not how to be fair. Nature is bountiful but flows not in equal measure. Wind is playful but respects not the weak and the aged. I am plentiful and bountiful and playful but I know not how to protect from the fury of the elements.
Neither cold nor hot rough or smooth dark or well-lit dull or bright of and in life matters to me; everything simply puts me over there and across where every moment is eternity and every beginning is its own destiny Every sight is its own painting and every breath is its own kiss.
Everything is still Nothing moves Thought vanishes Breath settles into a rhythm that pulsates with the Cosmic beat The body is taut like a string I want to melt into stillness.
I knew little and even now, all I could feel was the light and the breeze come into life, a life that was congested with pleasure and infested with people demanding pleasure. It was exhilarating to eject pleasure from life and reject demands. Then there was glow and I stood tall and breathed free.
A thought caressed my mind just as the waves do the rocks. The vastness of the sea matters little when one drop is like the millionth, the variety matters little when one life is like the millionth. You were part of my life and you still are In my mind. That moment was like any other of the billions that touched me and made me real. You aren't there now and you are real as much.
it wasn't easy But finally I decided I will wait no more. Let me face all that messy business of knowing what I want putting it across to those I love and care for. Not knowing how they will take it Not knowing what I will do if they don't take it. Too many things to anticipate, the head spinning and the mind is no help. I want to embrace that uncertainty and swim with it just as I have done with my Love.
Count your blessings so was I told. To be alive Humble and grateful Accepting yet aspiring Grounded yet star-eyed Supple and strong Sensitive and vulnerable To be blessed is to live soulfully in the body, fully with one self in the moment.
I was all set tostep out in the haze then something stirred asking me to wait till it cleared. The inner voice or a primordial fear? I chose to wait and then it enveloped me and entered through every pore and crevice and filled me completely till I became hazy and then thinking and then feeling and just being -everything now is just haze. Beauty and truth!
I struggle to figure out what is it I seek what will put zest back in my chest; I end up slithering down a slippery path. It aches me to feel nothing really touch inside, though outside is a lot. It's the haze that I ought to hold with both hands and take into my heart and let it slither down to my guts Then whatever shallbe willbe.
I have been passionate about life and love but somehow channeled my passions in artistic pursuits. I could not translate my romance with ideology into activism.